Stupid Cancer ..

My heart is pretty heavy today .. & It's taking all I have to hold back my tears & keep a positive attitude .. Last night my Mom took our family dog Bentley to the vets because he was throwing up & not eating .. We thought maybe he was just sick or had a tooth that had cracked, because he was favoring one side of his mouth when trying to eat .. After bloodwork, MRI's & XRays, we found out that Bentley has cancer :-( He has a large mass in his stomach that is getting removed today .. Along with the removal of his spleen .. The tumor has caused his spleen to move from between his breastbone to above his bladder .. That in itself, is causing him to have some internal bleeding .. He's getting prepped right now & will be taken back around 10:00 for his operation .. Please keep him in your prayers & hopes for a speedy recovery .. & also that the slight chance of his tumor being benign .. He's only 10 years old .. I love you Bentley!!

Tuesdays are so pointless ..

Ok .. I can understand Monday's .. Everyone hates them & they mark the beginning of a work week .. Thursdays make sense because they are the day before Friday & regardless of what anyone says, you will stay up later on Thursday evenings because you know Friday you can work no matter how tired you .. & Because, we all know Friday's are the best day of week .. Saturday & Sunday don't need an explanation .. So back to my title .. Tuesdays & Wednesdays just seem pointless .. They mean nothing .. & they just plain suck ..

Can I just say how tired I am of hearing people talk about how "white" my child is? Or how much he looks "asian"? Obviously my boyfriend isn't SUPER dark .. I am SUPER fair .. Not all biracial babies have to be black or tan .. Sorry I had a dominant gene in the making of him .. And again, if you look at pictures of my boyfriend, he has a little bit of a "slanted" eye .. So does my son .. He is not asian .. Not that there is anything wrong with being asian .. Do you know how embarrassing it is for people to ask me if i'm sure that Brent is the father? Or all the crazy stares we get from people when we are out .. I hate how superficial & judgmental people can get .. If anyone wants to pay the $200 it takes to get a paternity test, let's do it .. I will then get the results printed out on a t-shirt and wear it around with the words "YES HE IS THE FATHER" on it, so you all would just leave me alone about it!

Rant is over .. On a happier note, I found this survey to help take my mind off of idiots :)

1. What time did you get up this morning?

Technically, 4:00am .. Baby woke me up .. Then back up again at 6:30am ..

 2. How do you like your steak?

 Medium Rare ..

3. What was the last movie you saw at the theater?

The Dilemma .. I know, but we get awesome bootlegs, so I can watch ALL the NEW movies at home! :)

4. What is your favorite TV show?

Oh man .. How can I choose .. I love ALL reality TV..

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?

Somewhere sunny & beachy .. California!

6. What did you have for breakfast?

My fat ass had a mini pumpkin cheesecake (homemade by my awesome coworker) along with some crackers & some chicken cheese ball .. & coffee ..

7. Do you wear glasses or contacts?  

Glasses ..

8. What food do you despise?

Lima Beans & Liver ..

  

9.  Favorite Place to Eat?

So cliche - but OLIVE GARDEN!

10. Favorite dressing?

Ranch .. or this Aegean dressing from a hometown restaurant ..

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive?

2011 Nissan Altima Sedan .. Needed a 4 door Mom car!

12. What are your favorite clothes?

Sweats .. VNeck tshirts .. Uggs ..
Anything not form fitting to show off my "still looking pregnant" belly ..

13. Where would you visit, this weekend, if you had the chance?

Hershey Park to see the Christmas Lights .. 

14. How many tattoos do you have? 

I have two ..

15. Where would you want to retire?

St Augustine, FL ..

16. What is your desktop photo?

My beautiful baby boy & hot boyfriend!

17. Where were you born?

Hagerstown MD..

18. What is your favorite sport to watch?

 Football! .. REDSKINS Fan!!

19. How many siblings?

 One brother & One step brother ..

20. Favorite pastime/hobby?

 Sleeping .. Or shopping .. Or spending time with my Family ..

21. Coffee Drinker? 

 Absolutely! I keep Starbucks in business ..

22. Are you a morning person or a night person?

 Hmmm .. Probably a morning person now that I have a 4 month old ..

23. Do you have any pets?

 Technically no .. My mom has two dogs who are pretty much mine too .. :) 

Bentley & Bailey

 

24. What did you want to be when you were little?

 Marine Biologist or Zoologist ..

25.  What is your favorite color?

 Yellow ..

26. Are you a cat or dog person?

 DOG ..

27. Are you married?

 Nope .. or engaged .. & no, it's not happening anytime soon! :)

28. Always wear your seat belt?

 ALWAYS ..

29. Been in a car accident?

 Once, when I was little .. With my Mom ..

30. Any pet peeves?

 Close minded people .. Racist people .. SLOW IDIOT drivers .. I could go on for days!

31. Favorite Pizza Toppings?

 Ham & Mushroom .. or extra cheese!

32. Favorite Flower?

 Sunflowers!

33. Favorite ice cream?

 Raspberry or Butter Pecan ..

34. Favorite fast food restaurant?

 ALL OF THEM .. Taco Bell, Chick Fil A, Sonic, Arbys, Burger King ..

35. From whom did you get your last email?

My BFF Jamie Lee :) 

My confessions ..

So I'm pretty sure that NO ONE reads my blog .. But I decided to give this a try and link up with Leslie @ Blonde Ambition to give some of my confessions ..


1. I've done ABSOLUTELY no Christmas shopping yet .. We did manage to get Christmas pictures taken so I can start putting together our cards to send out & gifts to make ..

2. I spend close to $60 a week going out for lunch on top of the $100 my boyfriend spends weekly on groceries that I buy solely to bring in for my lunch ..

3. I have the most amazing best friend ever .. She is also an awesome God Mommy .. I'm super blessed & lucky to have her ..

4. I truly believe my boyfriend has a twin & he dates my best friend .. ^^^ yep, that best friend!

5. I came to realize at 24 that I never wanted kids .. At 25 I became a Mom ..

6. I am so thankful for my "oops" baby .. He is my whole entire world ..

7. I follow & read about 30 blogs every day .. I wish I was friends with LOTS of the girls I follow!

8. I dated a Redskins player ..

9. I hate how people still think I'm dating him & come up to talk to me about a game or a pass or touchdown or run he did .. I really don't give a crap anymore ..

10. I took 30 minutes to write this, and I hardly even confessed anything worth confessing ..

Yeah so I'm kind of lame .. Hopefully this gets easier as time goes on .. :)

I am super freakin tired today .. This past weekend was exhausting!

Friday night was "Olde Time Christmas" in Funkytown .. It's where EVERYONE and their brother (all 100 people) who live in Funkstown, get together and walk around the main street .. Can I just mention that Funkstown has 2 bars and a strip club? Yeah .. Our main street consists of : An antique shop, My apartment, a Florist, the Town Hall, St Pauls Lutheran Church, a Sub Shop, a Tax place, Bar #1, 2 hair salons, a lawyers office, Bar #2 and a Firehall ..  The strip club unfortunately isn't on main street .. Although it is on a main road past the kid friendly park & Post office .. I love my town .. I've lived here my entire life .. Well, since I was 4 .. Who else can say they've lived in 4 different houses in Funkstown? Right .. Only me .. My Pappy is known as Mr Funkstown .. Him and my Nanny are the oldest residents of Funkstown .. They've been there since 1957 .. & their house only cost $11,000 back then .. Pappy has told me 100 times ..  Off topic .. So after Olde Time Christmas, the family decided to go to Fratelli's for dinner .. The lovely boyfriend works across the street so he was able to meet us .. Cranky baby kicked in and I had to box my dinner up & head home .. He fell asleep around 9:00, woke us up at 3:30am for a bottle and then slept until 8:30am Saturday morning! Hallelujah!

Saturday was spent getting Bryce's 1st set of pictures taken .. I know, he's almost 4 months old & we're slacking .. we tried to get his pictures done at 6 weeks .. He was NOT having that .. I got a couple proofs back yesterday & Can't wait to see the rest! We're surprising our parents/family members with these pictures .. So keep this shit a secret all you followers .. yeah, that's my idea of a joke .. Lammmmeee .. Is it weird I feel like I should stop typing this because I'm the only person who's reading/going to read it? lol .. Sooooo, after pictures our little model fell fast asleep .. Mommy & Daddy had a romantic outing to Sam's Club & WalMart .. I love the feeling of a full house of food .. Maybe because I love food! .. FINALLY got home around 7:30 .. Gave Bryce a bottle, put him to bed and Daddy and Mommy had some adult time .. No, not that adult time .. Movie & alcoholic beverages to be exact .. We can't hang like we used too .. I was asleep by 10:00 lol ..

Sunday Mr Bryce decided Mommy needed to be awake at 6am .. I was not a happy camper .. Seeing as though I was just up with him at 3:00am .. and because we had a LONG day ahead of us .. 3 birthday parties .. Lots of food .. Tons of kids .. I needed Starbucks but didn't get it .. After leaving our house at 1pm, we got home at 9pm .. I was beat .. Bryce fell asleep at 10 and woke up at 5:30 for me .. Not bad .. 7 and half hours .. I believe i will be getting him to stay awake until 10:00 again tonight lol ..

I hate holiday season at my job because EVERYONE brings in food .. all the time .. and i swear i will gain 100lbs in 2 weeks .. I am not even going to post what i just consumed ..

I need to get some work done, so i'll leave you with this adorable baby boy .. and yes, he is allll mine :)

My Birth Story - Bryce Pierre - August 30th 2011

First thing's first .. My little boy's due date was set for September 24th, so you can imagine how surprised I was to give birth to him August 30th .. Here is how it all went down :)


Oh and here I am on August 25th .. 8 months pregnant .. I was huge lol .. Imagine 4 more weeks of being pregnant ..

August 29th - Just like any other day .. I forced my BIG self out of bed and into the shower .. Headed to work & things were fairly normal .. 4-5 prior to today I had called my OBGYN office to just get some questions answered .. I wasn't feeling "right" .. I had back pains and LOTS of swelling .. I was fairly concerned but they didn't seem to be .. I was told "It was first time Mom jitters and anxiousness" .. So of course, I was made to feel pretty stupid .. Weren't we always taught no question was a stupid question? Yeah well, obviously all my questions were .. Anywhooooo, around 11am I had to pee .. When I get to the bathroom I notice something in my underwear .. All the baby books I've read have finally come to good use .. I realize it's my mucus plug .. I immediately feel terrified, waddle back to my desk & call good ol' Mom .. She told me that there was NOTHING to worry about .. That it just means your body is preparing for birth .. A few of the girls I work with who have had kids, told me the same thing .. I didn't get too worried, seeing as thought I'd be going to my 36 week checkup appointment later on in the day .. 3:00pm hits and there we all sit (Mom & Baby Daddy) in the OBGYN office .. I'm already not in a good mood after hitting the scales and realizing my "idea" of not gaining any more than 30lbs is WAY off .. I'm up to 45lbs gained with 4 weeks to go .. The Dr comes in and checks me out .. They had to do my Strep B test also .. I was 1 1/2 cm dialated and 50% effaced .. I was told not to worry too much and take it easy .. I was measuring in at 36 weeks and everything was normal .. I went home feeling assured & relaxed .. I went about my normal routine & headed to my Mom's while Baby Daddy went to his 2nd job .. Come 8:00pm, I waddle myself home (Mom lives 2 blocks away) and make dinner .. Baby Daddy's sisters & Mom came over to visit .. Still, everything was pretty normal .. Around 9:30 I remember feeling extremely exhausted and EVERYTHING on my entire body swelled up .. Face, Nose, Fingers, Feet, Ankles, everything .. I again, thought this was just a sign of being almost full term in my pregnancy .. After all, the nurses and Dr at my office weren't concerned so I tried not to be .. At this point it's 9:30pm and I go to the freezer, get ice packs & sit down on the kitchen floor .. Yeah, I dont know either, but I just couldn't walk anymore, let alone the 5 feet to my living room .. Everyone came out to check on me and we just migrated to the kitchen and talked .. Mom & Sister's left around 10:00 and I looked at my boy and told him I was going to bed .. I felt weird, tired & swollen .. I put on my favorite tshirt and kissed Baby Daddy & off to lay in bed I go .. Baby Daddy was in the shower at this point .. I reach over to turn on the dreaded alarm for 5am .. I remember the clock said 10:23pm .. I throw on my comforter, lay down, close my eyes and BAM .. My water breaks .. It is by far the weirdest feeling .. You literally feel a POP and then a gush .. I'm talking, niagra falls gush .. Or at least me .. I scream to the boy "OMG MY WATER BROKE" .. He jumps out of the shower and runs around like crazy trying to pack a bag .. Yes, I was ONE of those people who didn't have a bag packed .. Cmon, I just got the nursery done that Saturday .. I can't do 2 major things at once and besides, I swore this child was going to be LATE, not 4 weeks early .. I will be better prepared IFFFFFFFFF there is a next child .. IF .. Instead of calling my OBGYN like any other normal person would, I call my Mom .. I mean, she has had 2 kids and of course she is going to be calm and tell me not to freak out .. She tells me she is on her way up and to call the Dr .. I see it is now 10:45pm and i'm just standing in the middle of my bedroom, watching the boyfriend go ape shit, grabbing everything, throwing it in a suitcase, while I am still leaking massive amounts of fluid .. I'm just standing there crying because I am SO NOT READY FOR THIS .. FINALLY, I call the Dr .. It was a midwife on call that i'd never met .. I wasn't too happy about that .. I tell her what happened .. She told me not to worry .. WHY DOES EVERYONE KEEP TELLING ME THAT! .. Anyways, she asked how much I was leaking and to put on a pad and once the pad was soaked to call back and let her know .. I keep her on the phone and say "Ok I have on a pad, Oh man, it's soaked" .. She didn't find me funny, but NO ONE seems to take me serious .. She asked if I had my strep B test done yet .. I told her I had gotten it this morning but no results were back .. FINALLY, I'm told to go ahead and get admitted in case I was positive so they could start me on antibiotics .. I get to the hospital around 11 .. My Mom, Step Dad & Boyfriend are with me .. Mom called my Mamall (grandmother) to let her know what was going on & she came in .. My family knows I need company and support to keep my mind off of what's happening .. That's just how I am .. Well stupid mean MidWife comes in and basically tells everyone to leave and I'll be fine and this will take HOURS .. Her exact words were something along the lines of "Why is everyone here, bla bla bla, why are we getting so excited, bla bla bla, hours and hours, bla bla bla", I wanted to punch her .. She had a nurse TRY to give me an IV .. She pricked me 5 times .. No success .. FINALLY she got it on the 6th time after collapsing a vein, bursting a vein, missing a vein, whatever .. I hated her and was so happy when she said she had to assist a csection and i'd get a new nurse .. The midwife came in and told me to get some rest & she'd check on me around 5am .. Everyone left me and the boyfriend went to sleep .. How is someone supposed to sleep knowing a baby is coming? I was told I was having contractions but didn't feel a thing .. "PIECE OF CAKE" I thought .. I was always told they felt like severe period cramps, & honestly, every period I had in my entire life was SEVERE .. I knew i'd be fine .. Around 3am (baby daddy is still sleeping) I start to get horrible back pain .. I think nothing of it .. I remember feeling it a few days ago, but blamed it on the fact that I'd been constipated .. TMI? Sorry .. The nice Nurse came in and said to get in the shower .. It's supposed to speed up dialation also .. I was in there for maybe 20 minutes .. The nurse helped me get back in bed and was massaging my lower back .. This Nurse was an ANGEL .. I was so sad when her shift was over .. I look at the clock and realize it's 5am .. Midwife comes in and checks me and WHAM i'm 5cm .. She looked surprised .. So far, so good .. STILL NO DRUGS .. (Quick note, I'm one of the lucky individuals that is allergic to almost every narcotic known to man) .. I ask for drugs anyways, thinking that they HAVE to HAVE something for people like me .. Well they do .. But mean Midwife doesn't want to give me anything just yet because of my progress & my medical history .. Worst case scenario, they give me something, it harms me or the baby & I have to get an emergency C Section (yeah, I'm good) .. After the nurse and Midwife left, I yell over to sleeping baby daddy and ask him to PLEASE wake up and keep me company .. Hi honey, it's me .. Your girlfriend .. You love me, remember? I'm in labor and about to have your baby, it would be nice for you to be awake and help .. Around 6ish, Mom, Step Dad and Mamall come back .. My pappy ended up coming in .. Aunt Jen came in .. Aunt Jodi .. Boyfriend's Mom & Sisters .. I had a whole bunch of people to keep me occupied .. 9am hits and I am FEELING it .. It's horrendous .. NO front cramping like I had expected .. Yep, you guessed it, I had back labor .. (Baby boy was face up, instead of face down) .. And OMG it is way worse than I could have ever imagined .. A new Dr comes in to check me .. She was the Dr who just examined me the previous day .. She came in, saw me and said "WOW I did not expect this to happen so soon" .. I wanted to laugh because she was sweet, but I wanted to say "IF YOU PEOPLE WOULD'VE TAKEN ME SERIOUSLY, YOU MIGHT'VE KNOWN THIS WAS COMING" .. I kept my cool, because she was going to be the one to deliver my child and I was afraid if I was mean, she'd purposefully give me a snip from top to bottom .. Because all Drs do that .. I am now 8cm dialated .. Honestly, I wish I could tell you everything else that happened between 9am-12pm but I was in so much pain, I don't remember .. I'm still being told stories of how amazing I did, how calm I was, and how I cussed at a nurse .. Oh and how a preacher came in to bless me .. Yeah, weird .. At 12ish I remember being checked and told I was 9cm .. As the nurse walks out I see Dr Oh (MY FAVORITE) poke his head in and tell me he is going to be my Dr now, because the other one had to be in emergency surgery .. MUSIC TO MY EARS & the only thing I really remember .. My Nurse Autumn, was AMAZING .. She was helping me through my contractions, and I remember hearing, whoever doesn't want to be in here, needs to leave .. I had a feeling it was time .. Mom was on my left, up by my head, and THANK GOD my crazy, hilarious, Aunt Jodi decided to stay .. She had my left foot & was pretty much my coach .. As much as I wanted to punch her at times for screaming in my face to PUSH, if it wasn't for her, I don't think I could've gone through with it .. Baby Daddy was on the right, up by my head, and his Mom had my right foot .. As expected, I felt the sudden urge to get up & poop .. I heard, push .. I remember the pain being unbearable .. I could not believe I was about to do this DRUG FREE .. (Note: Get the epidural if you are allowed .. do not do this to yourself unless you have too lol) .. I kept hearing "there's his head" "he has FULL head of hair" and the nurse ran out to get the DR .. Ladies, remember when you are pushing to push with your BUTT not your FACE .. That was one thing that I kept saying to myself over and over in my head .. Dr Oh came in and assumed the position .. I remember looking at the clock and everyone guessing when he was coming .. Some said 1:15, some said 1:30 .. It was 12:20 currently .. I pushed and pushed and pushed and at 12:56, out came my precious, beautiful, little boy .. He was perfect .. They took him from me to get checked, weight, measured etc .. I had to go through all the lovely "after birth" stuff and I just laid there thinking "wow I really did this. I gave birth all natural" .. I felt so empowered .. I can't even described the feeling .. One thing I missed was Baby Daddy cutting the umbilical cord .. I was too exhausted and tired and wrapped up in my baby boy .. I have never felt so much joy & love in my entire life .. He's finally here ..

Bryce Pierre Shaffer
August 30, 2011
7lbs, 4oz
19 1/2 inches long
12:56 pm

Friday - Just The Two Of Us

I ran across this from being a blog stalker and decided to link up with Rebecca @ Marsh-Mellow and give this a whirl. (Seeing as though, "just us two" will be "just us three" here in few short weeks!)

1. What are your middle names?

Taylor & Pierre.

 2. How long have you been together?

We've been together for only 7 months.

3. How long did you know each other before you started dating?

I've known Brent since High School. So I would estimate 7-8 years of knowing each other before we started dating. I was always into his friends and never really showed interest in him. (I just always though he'd never date someone like me. I'm outgoing, he's super shy. We weren't a good match at the time lol)

4. Who asked who out?

Well, technically, I believe he messaged me on Facebook first. Making a comment about the Redskins (since i'm a huge fan and he's a Cowboys fan). At the time I was seeing a player for the Redskins so he was trying to get tickets to the Dallas vs Redskins pregame opener. Unfortunately I couldn't come through for him lol. But a few weeks later, we ended up meeting up and hanging out. After that, i didn't see him again for almost 2 months. I declined his invitations to hang out and pretty much blew him off. Until one night I text him, told him i was going to the bar, would love to see him, he showed up & it's been history ever since :)

5. How old are each of you?

Brent is 26. I am 25.

6. Did you go to the same school?

We sure did.

7. Are you from the same home town?

Yep.

8. Who is the smartest?

That isn't a fair question lol. Ok book smart maybe me. Street smart, definitely him.

9. Who majored in what?

I took the Science route and did Dental. He did some college but never finished. He was going for business management.

10. Who is the most sensitive?

Oh definitely me, by far.

11. Where is the furthest you two have traveled together as a couple?

 Myrtle Beach, SC

12. Who has the worst temper?

HAHA! Well we are both stubborn so that doesn't help. But if I HAVE to pick, I would say Brent does. He doesn't like to think before he speaks and say some not so nice things (That he later DEFINITELY apologizes for lol)

13. How many children do you want?

Well, I can start off by saying I didn't want any. He will say he wanted some. I don't think he has an exact number. But surprisingly, January 19th 2011, we discovered we would for sure be having one baby together :)

14. Who does the cooking?

Me. Me. & Me. And I don't mind. My hardworking guy has 2 jobs and is gone from 5:30am until almost 8:30pm every night. The least I can do is make him a home cooked meal to come home too after working so hard to be the provider in the house for me and our son.

15. Who is more social?

That would DEFINITELY be me!

16. Who is the neat freak?

Oh geesh. Good one. Ummm, I'd have to say him. He is so organized that I sometimes get jealous lol.

17. Who is the most stubborn?
It's a tie. I can't pick. We are both terribly stubborn lol.

18. Who wakes up earlier?

Monday-Friday he does because of work. Weekends, usually me.

19. Where was your first date?
Our official "first date" was dinner at TGIFriday's, then we went and saw The Dilemma at the movies.

20. Who has the bigger family?
Brent definitely has the bigger family.

21. Do you get flowers often?

I wish. Although I did get an enormous & beautiful bouquet for my birthday back in March. I was surprised and it had ALL yellow flowers. Yellow is my favorite, duh :)

22. How do you spend the holidays?

Well, we will find out. We didn't spend Thanksgiving together seeing as though we were still freshly "dating". Christmas eve he came to my Mom's. Easter we spent with his family. 4th of July was with my family. This year will be crazy I'm sure because our son will be here and I'm sure everyone will want to see us :) I can't wait.

23. Who is more jealous?

I'd have to say he is.

24. How long did it take to get serious?
Not very long at all lol. We discovered only a mere 2 months after getting together that we'd be expecting a baby, so we had to make things serious pretty quick.

25. Who eats more?

Surprisingly, he does. I think sometimes he's the pregnant one :)

26. What do you do for a living?

I am an Analyst for First Data & Brent works for FedEx & PepsiCo.

27. Who does the laundry?
Fair share of both of us. Sometimes I have to man it alone, but he always puts it away and makes the bed with clean sheets.

28. Who's better with the computer?

Me. I work on one everyday!

29. Who drives when you are together?

Most of the time Brent drives my car. Being pregnant and driving sometimes sucks. Very rarely will I drive unless it's a quick drive.

30. What is your song?

Hmm, we don't really have "a song". We have lots of songs that remind us of our times together. If you asked Brent he would say Chris Brown - No Bullshit (so romantic right lol). And if I had to pick one song for him it would be Amerie - Why Don't We (because i used to blast this after leaving his house in the wee morning hours on my way back to my place)

Happy Weekend lovelies :) (I like how i address this as lovelies, seeing as though I truly believe I am the only person who even looks at this blog lol).

This weekend will be full of laundry, grocery shopping, cleaning out the baby's room so it's actually not storage anymore, and laying pool side :)

Oh Thursday.

So I didn't really want to blog about anything in particular (seeing as though I have 15 minutes left of my work day) & decided this would be quick & interesting. Even though nothing I do is quick. We shall see. Start time 4:14pm.

I saw this post over at Jenn's blog this week & thought it'd be fun for me to give my answers for you guys too! :)

I am... Pregnant.

I want... can't I just make a list and get back to you? How about a house!

I have... an amazing boyfriend.

I wish... I didn't have to work full time & could spend the 1st year of my son's life with him all day everyday! (When he arrives in September)

I hate... hate is a strong word. I dispise a lot. Especially this 105 degree weather!

I fear... heights, lightning, labor & delivery.

I hear... my coworkers discussing work related things. As I sit here and blog lol.

I search... Pintrest like crazy!!

I wonder... when my baby boy will get here & who he will look like!

I regret... nothing. I refuse to live life with regrets. Everything I've done, was meant to be.

I love... my boyfriend, my family, my little bun in the oven, my job, my apartment, my life!

I never... drive without my seat belt on!

I ache... all day everyday. Being 31 weeks pregnant can do that to you!

I always... shower two times a day! or bathe. Either or. Oh & make my bed!

I usually... hit the snooze button 2-3 times every morning.

I am not... good at relaxing. I do way too much. Ask my boyfriend. He yells at me a lot.

I dance... amazingly! I love dancing! I miss dancing. I mean I can, but it's harder these days!

I sing... amazingly. Yeah I used that word twice. I'm just all around amazing I guess. Thank God i'm not modest. Pssh.

I sometimes... pee in the shower. Yeah gross, whatever. Don't judge me. Pregnancy & peeing are no joke. I literally pee every 2 minutes.

I cry... lots. My hormones & emotions are crazy right now.

I am not always... on time. I used to be extremely anal and punctual. For some reason, since I've been with my boyfriend, he's rubbed off on me. He likes to use the phrase "You can't rush perfection" or continues to tell me that the tortoise beat the hare. He's quite a comedian :)

I lose... my train of thought so easily!

I am confused... 99% of my days. Forreal.

I need... to clean out my spare room & prepare for baby B's arrival. 9 weeks!

I should... start packing up & head home.

Survey end time: 4:24. Wow only took me 10 minutes. 

Toodles lovies :)

3 months late!

I had not realized that I haven't updated this blog since April. Needless to say, I am now 31 weeks pregnant and definitely have started feeling the shitty aspect of being pregnant. Yes, everyone thinks being pregnant is so great and wonderful and magical and amazing. And there are times I can agree. But 98% of the time, I can't. What is great about being kicked in the ribs? Head butted in the bladder? Feeling like I've been kicked repeatedly in the crotch & am bruised? Leaking boobs? Swollen feet? Loss of appetite? Nausea? Stretch marks? And most important, try sleeping comfortably. Yes, I am aware the outcome of my misery and suffering is my beautiful little boy, but for me to say I LOVE BEING PREGNANT, is an understatement. Go ahead, judge me or disagree. Do I feel like a horrible person for feeling this way? Sometimes yes. Ok, most of the time yes. Because I realize there are women out there who would give ANYTHING to feel this way, and those women are the ones who can't have children. I take this pregnancy a day at a time and I do have my good days. Thank God for my amazing, wonderful, supportive, loving, helpful boyfriend. I couldn't do this without him!

Ok, enough of the Debbie Downer post. A lot has happened since my last blog. I've got 9 weeks to go until the baby is here. We found out we are expecting a little boy. His name is Bryce Pierre. (Pierre is his Daddy's middle name and Daddy want his little boy to have the same initials). I was kind of weary in the beginning with Brittany, Brent and Bryce. But it just seems to fit him so well now. We spend MONTHS finding a name. Every name I picked out was criticized. I wanted something unique and different. Since our baby is biracial, we ran into a lot of "different" names and "different" reactions. I wanted Daylan (Day-lin) Amare (A-mar-ee). But was told it sound too black. I gave up and told Brent, YOU PICK THE NAME! So he sat down, took him 2 minutes, and there you have it. Our girl name came to us SO easy. It really was such a hard time finding a boy name.

In June we traveled to Myrtle Beach for a family vacation. I got some great preggo pics & had such a good time. I made sure to protect my belly with SPF50 and the rest of my body with SPF 10. I look hella funny being tan with a BIG WHITE belly. We stayed from Saturday to Saturday. The weather was great. Enjoyed a lot of virgin Pina Colada's while watching my boyfriend slurp down Strawberry Margarita's. Visited the Ripley's Aquarium, Margaritaville, Carlos & Charlies, Barefoot Landing, Broadway @ the Beach & watched Fireworks. All in all, our trip was great. The car ride wasn't as bad as I expected. I only made boyfriend stop 2 times on the way there and 2 times on the way home to pee. I was so glad to be home & in my pillow covered bed after the week was done! (Don't mind my pastey whiteness, it was the first day at the beach! lol)

One major thing I forgot was us moving in together! We found a great apartment two blocks away from my Mom's house and in the town I grew up in. Everything is coming together great. We just need to clean out/organize the baby's room so we can set up his crib and get some sort of flow going. I have decided on pastel green, pastel blue, and brown for his nursery. I'm pretty much waiting on the babyshowers before I buy anything myself. I believe i'll be having at least 3 showers, so most of the bedding and decor will (hopefully) be bought for us. I sound confident and cocky about that lol. We will see! I don't have any apartment pictures, but I'll have to get some. Our kitchen is HUGE, the living room is HUGE, the bedrooms are decent & so is the bathroom. I just wish we had more storage space. This is definitely a good place to bring Bryce home but once he hits 12 months, a house will definitely be needed. Plus, I promised boyfriend he can have a "man cave".

Well that's really all the major fun and exciting things that have happened since I blogged last. The pregnancy is going good, baby seems to be healthy and fine. I hate my OBGYN office. But that in itself is a whole other blog post. That can be my agenda for tomorrow. Get ready for a full post of bitching! It's what I do best! :)

Not Eating for Two!

So one thing about this pregnancy that I promised myself, was that I was going to refuse to actually "eat for two". I'm insecure enough about my body and I really don't want to look at myself after giving birth and see the extra 50-70lbs i need to lose. That's a lot. I can honestly say I haven't been the BEST eater, but I haven't been over indulging. I'm 15 weeks pregnant, and knowing that in 2 weeks I'll be starting my 5th month, I'm happy to know that I'm still holding strong at 149-150lbs. When I got pregnant I weighted in at 147lbs. So a gain of 2-3lbs in 15 weeks is fine by me. I feel as though I'm losing weight everywhere but my Boobs, Butt and Belly. Triple B's lol.

This week I have decided to start eating lunch in the office (seeing as though my wonderful boyfriend bought our groceries on Sunday totalling $80) so that way I can save money & eat better. At my job, eating out everyday for lunch is very very common. Eating in the office, alone in your cubicle, is not. I've decided to keep a journal of the food I've consumed to see where I'm at lol. We'll start with yesterday.

Monday - Breakfast I had a little bowl of fruit loops & yogurt. Lunch I had a ham sandwich, pringles, string cheese, sliced pears, 2 pickles and a root beer. When I got home from work I CRAVED salt, so I had a handful of chips. For dinner, I had grilled chicken, asparagus and few french fries. All in all, it's not really different from my normal (not pregnant) diet. I did take 2 walks yesterday too as well. I really need to stick with exercising. I used to work out A LOT until I found out I was pregnant.

Today - Breakfast I had a little bowl of Cinnamon Toast Crunch. Lunch I had a left over chicken breast and asparagus, peaches, string cheese, a pickle, pringles and a root beer. Not sure what I'll have for dinner but probably one of my Stouffer's meals.

I am no longer going to indulge in the nastiness of fast food. I will allow myself one trip to Chick-Fil-A a week, or another place of my choice, but from now on, it's eating lunch in, alone at my desk. To me, it's not quite that bad. I normally work through lunch (which is an hour) and I can leave an hour early which clocks me out at 4:30 :) Well I'm salary so I don't really have to clock out lol.

Here are a few of my favorite choices of food since becoming pregnant! Snow Cones, Mini Cereals, Pringles, Pickles and Spaghetti & Meatballs from OLIVE GARDEN! (which is hilarious because pre-pregnancy, I was a weird individual & despised Spaghetti! lol) I have become quite obsessed with Olive Garden. I could eat there everyday if I could afford it. Bible.

It's still hard for me to believe that in 5 days, I will officially be 16 weeks pregnant. That is the end of my 4th month and beginning of my 5th. Baby Shaffer will be here before we know it! We go April 30th to find out if Baby Shaffer is a he or she. I can NOT wait! I'm really hoping it's a boy & I just feel it. I guess that's a mothers intuition :)

Enjoy the rest of your Tuesday lovelies! :)

13 Weeks - Our little peach :)

I hate to brag, but i have had such an easy pregnancy by far :) I've had the occasional spouts of nausea and I felt super tired in the beginning, but 13 weeks into this, I feel great!

Had a super busy weekend. Which included a trip to the ER for a little scare. Just turns out I have a UTI. I was hoping they maybe, just maybe, would do a sonogram on our little one to make sure everything looked good, but they didn't.

My next OBGYN appt is April 12th and I'll be at 17 weeks. Not too much longer until we figure out what our little Bambino is :) I cannot wait! My friend referred me to this Amazing place in Gaithersburg called Stork Vision, where they offer 2D, 3D and 4D images. You can go as early as 16 weeks for the gender, but I have decided to make an appt for 18 weeks. The packages are reasonably priced & you get a lot. This is something Brent and I have talked about and are so excited for! Everyone keeps saying, oh just wait 3-4 more weeks after your appt and find out, but it's our baby, it's my choice and let alone it being my first child, I'm going all out. I want all the memories I can have so I can share them with our little one as they get older.

So glad the weather has been great these past couple of days. I love sleeping with the windows open. Seems more peaceful. Or maybe it could be the ginormous body pillow i just bought from Wal Mart! Either way, sleeping has become my most favorite thing to do! I better enjoy it now!

I have become obsessed with TheBump.com and reading about everything on pregnancy. It's such a miracle and such an amazing thing to go through :) Here is an update on our little one from TheBump.com.

 

Your fetus is forming teeth and vocal cords... savor this, their non-functional phase. Baby is approaching normal proportions, with a head now only one third the size of the body. Intestines are in the process of moving from the umbilical cord to baby's tummy. (Much more convenient.)

Have a great week everyone! Hopefully I can find blogspot for dummies and learn how to spice my page up a little more!

First Blog!

This will probably be short & sweet until I can figure out the ins and outs of blogging. So if anyone (somehow) reads this, I am grateful for any suggestions or "how to's" of the blogging world :)

I'll start with a simple description of myself. I'm Brittany. I'm 25 (well i will be on the 11th!) and I found out almost 2 months ago, that I am expecting :) I am due September 24th. I am currently employed by First Data as an Analyst. Sounds so plain and bland, but trust me, I have too many jobs around here, therefore giving myself a title would be to complicated. My boyfriend and I have known each other since High School, so we have a few years under our belts. But only have been dating for a mere 4 months. I know I know. I'm sure everyone is thinking, "4 Months! and she's pregnant!" But regardless of the length we've been together, I am truly happy and so so excited for our future. Yes the baby was unexpected, but it has done nothing but brought us closer together with each other & with our families. I feel super lucky and blessed!

I'll write up some more tomorrow, but for now, I'll leave you with a picture of me and my awesome, loving, sweet & caring boyfriend.

Toodles :)