Friday Confessional

It's Friday -- Time to Confess! :)

-I'm going to a movie premiere this Saturday for my good friend, Koran Dunbar .. It's a red carpet event .. I'm totally hoping to find a dress last minute so I can recreate the Angelina Leg look ..

-Below is the link to the movie trailer .. This is such a powerful movie & I can NOT wait to see it .. I'm so excited!

Greencastle - Movie Trailer

-I suck at doing hair .. Well, just mine .. I can do awesome updo's and curls for my friends, oh and poofs (Thanks to Miss PinkLouLou for the tutorials!) .. So i'm left with wondering how I'm supposed to do my hair for the movie premiere .. Trying to do my own hair is like trying to teach a 7 month old how to write his name ..

-Speaking of 7 month old -- my awesome, amazing little man is 7 months old TODAY!! Whew - time is just flying by .. I feel as though I'll blink & he'll be graduating High School .. I'm so in love with the fact he is getting a little more color but his precious head of DARK hair he was born with, is SLOWLY turning blonde :) Just like his mama!!

-I got a check in the mail for $10 due to an overpayment on something .. I almost jumped for joy .. I can tell i'm totally becoming an adult! $10 is 10 jars of baby food plus i have a coupon and can save $2.00 .. What has my life become?

-I had terrible road rage this morning .. TERRIBLE .. i'm afraid one day i'm going to hurt someone, or myself .. & don't judge me, i only drive crazy when I'M ALONE .. i drive like a grandma when my child is in the car .. And i never take the interstate unless needed when he's in the car .. The interstate has the WORST drivers ..

-I had a dream i saw a man getting tased and then shot .. When i read the news online this morning (for my town) a man got tased and then shot .. Weird coincidence ..

-I'm part of the 23982309482384 people who are playing the mega millions .. I even picked my own numbers .. I'm in a pool with 10 other people i work with and i'm kind of hoping we win SOMETHING .. one of our tickets won $150 .. woo hoo for an extra $10 ..

-I'm thinking I should've picked the #10 ..

-I'm realizing that I'm boring ..

-Tonight I'm going to a Going Away party for my dear friend Gina .. She came to MD from Mexico on a work Visa .. She had no friends, no family & only knew the people she worked with .. My Mom kind of "took her in" & i've called her my "foster sister" ever since .. She married a friend of mine who I went to high school with & will be heading to Utah for a new job .. I'm going to miss her terribly .. But what I'm going to miss most, is the fact that Bryce won't get to be close with her .. He will definitely miss his "aunt Gina" .. I'm sure tonight will be an emotional rollercoaster .. Sad, but so bittersweet .. I'm so happy for her but worried about Mom and "losing" one of her "children" ..

-I was told that if my work gave out awards, I'd get the award for the dirtiest mouth .. That would makes sense because i work with 80% men .. It must rub off .. and i do like to drop the F bomb every now & then .. when my son is around, i use phrases like "what the french" "shut the front door" "son of a bulldog" .. it just doesn't sound as kick ass as the real words .. I'll be happy when my son goes to school and says "WHAT THE FRENCH" rather than "what the f*ck" .. Because in 1st grade, I did that .. and I put a kid in a headlock .. and punched someone in the nuts .. by 2nd grade i was kissing boys .. in 3rd grade I told everyone my mom was a stripper .. Dear God - please never let me have a daughter ..

Happy Friday bitches! :) Hope everyone has an amazing weekend!!!

Working on me ..

I was inspired to write this post, after seeing From Mrs. To Mama's post on being a better wife .. We seem to have A LOT of the same qualities!

One thing she mentioned was impatience .. I can honestly say, I have NO patience .. Since having my son, it has gotten better, but it definitely still needs some work .. & yes, when I get mad, I go for the low blow too .. One thing I've heard over and over again during arguments (with baby daddy, mom, etc) is "Brittany, you are so hateful" .. If you ask anyone I've NEVER been in an argument with before, they would probably tell you there is no way I could be hateful .. I'm a very big hearted person, I'm EXTREMELY outgoing, and I've been told on numerous occasions, I have an addictive personality .. So for me to admit I can be hateful, is a BIG step for me .. & I'm one to not think before I speak ..

Totally off topic, but after seeing a post on FB about how this girl thinks her life is going to be PERFECT once she pops a baby out, kind of made me angry .. Where is my patience again?

I just get so angry with girls who think just because they are having someone's baby, it means everything will be so lovely and grand .. I hate to tell you, but it isn't like that at all .. Of course, don't get me wrong, there are lots of great times, happy times and amazing moments .. but when you both are going on 2 hours of sleep, you have an infant who is screaming for no reason, and you can't get him to stop, yeah, that's when my patience is non existent .. It's rough .. You fight, you argue, you are both stressed, sleep deprived, and frustrated .. Sure, there are couples out there who have great babies .. perfect babies .. Mine, not so much .. He was colicky & had terrible skin issues .. He still, at 6 months, does NOT sleep through the night .. And i don't think he ever will .. So word of advice to those girls who think, just because you're having his baby, it's going to make your relationship 100% better, please rethink your decision ..

I am not perfect .. Nor will I ever be .. I don't want to be .. I'm a real person .. I have good days, I have bad days .. I'm not a perfect Mom .. But I'm the best Mom to my son .. I couldn't imagine life without him and I love him to death .. Yeah, so I complain .. I'm allowed too .. My life isn't easy .. I work full time and I'm a Mom full time .. I would never take back one bad day for anything .. My relationship is not all rainbows and butterflies .. We fight like Ike and Tina (minus the beating part lol) .. but at the end of the day, we kiss good night and we are still in love .. That says a lot about us both ..

Thanks Becky, for inspiring me to take a look at myself and realize I need to make some changes .. for the better .. Instead of coming home and being mad that baby daddy didn't do the dishes and is napping, i'll take a deep breath, not lose my cool & be patient .. He does work 2 jobs and provides .. I could be a little easier on him .. Now he has some things to change too, which, i know, takes time .. We were together (officially) only 1 month before I got pregnant .. (Yeah, friends with benefits seem to turn into more after that lol) .. Not only are we learning how to be parents, we are still learning about each other .. I love him more than life .. And couldn't imagine going through this with anyone else ..

I promise, tomorrow's blog won't be so Debbie-Downer-esque .. After catching up on some blogs i read regularly, I'm wishing i was on a cruise! :)

I confess ..

I confess - I went to Wegman's this past weekend & I was not impressed .. I've heard everyone talk about how amazing it is, but i think i wasted my time .. I did buy 2 loaves ofbread for $2.99 .. SCORE! I drove 25 minutes to Frederick for bread .. 

I confess - My boss just came to me and told me he needs a 5-10 presentation due by EOD on something i'm not familiar with .. I don't work well under pressure and unless you can give me topics and ideas, i will fail at this miserably .. Please say a pray for me .. 

I confess - I feel like a horrible mother because I'm off Friday & Monday for my Birthday weekend, and Baby Daddy and I have decided to let Bryce in daycare both of those day, so we can get some Mommy-Daddy time, along with cleaning uninterrupted time .. We will have him all day Saturday and Sunday for my birthday, and we will be picking him up at 3:00pm instead of his regular 5:00pm on the days he's there .. Go ahead and think what you want .. But working Mama's need a little bit of a break some time .. I just don't know how to say NO to this .. How freakin adorable .. Sweet cheeks baby! :)

I confess - This giving up of Soda and Fast Food for Lent is doing NOTHING for me .. I swore i'd lose at least a few lbs, nope .. I've lost none .. I just really want to be able to button my jeans and not have muffin top .. Thank you child birth .. Now i have nothing but flabby skin that won't tighten no matter how many crunches i do .. I want a cheeseburger ..

I confess - because of that picture, i really want to put cheez whiz on doritos .. It's a wonder i don't weight 500lbs!

I confess - I should be getting ready to pack my suitcases, get on jet plane, and fly to wonderful Miami for my birthday weekend .. but baby daddy decided to total his car 3 weeks ago, and our travel money and spending money was used to purchase him a new vehicle and pay off his LOVELY fine at the MVA .. DO NOT EVER LET YOUR INSURANCE LAPSE! OMG .. you wouldn't believe the amount of money i threw down for that if i told you! 

 

I confess - It's Monday and i really need to finish my work instead of blogging! :)

Hope everyone had a great weekend! I'm now 6 days away from my Birthday!! I should be celebrating all week, but no one cares about 26 anymore .. Actually, no one cares about your birthday once you have a baby .. it's all about the baby lol .. Oh i don't like that very much .. Because clearly, I love being the center of attention .. I was the only girl and the baby of the family .. It's just in my DNA to be that way :)