Friday .. Friday .. Baby Mama Talk ..

Has this been the longest week ever for anyone else? Maybe it's because I've gotten about 4-5 hours of sleep for the past 5 nights .. Which brings me to my topic of the day!

Mommy's vs Mommy's ..

One of the biggest issues I've had since being a Mommy - is getting advice .. Well, not advice, more like "demands" .. You need to try this .. You've got to try that .. DO NOT do this .. You did what??

Also, the fact that women who DO NOT have children & try to give me advice .. am i right or am i right?

First and foremost .. My son is on a schedule .. a very tight one .. He is in daycare full time Monday - Friday from 8am-5pm .. He gets one nap at daycare from 12pm-2pm .. When he gets home, he gets a short evening nap so he re-energize .. When he spends the night with my Mom or with Brent's side of the family, I ask them to please keep him on his schedule AS CLOSE as possible .. Will I get upset if he gets a nap from 11-1? No .. C'mon, I'm an anal bitch, but not by much .. I ask that he DOES NOT sleep in bed with anyone .. This also, start bad habits .. and lastly, I ask he not be fed junky greasy food, soda, or something with TONS of sugar .. Is that too much to ask for? Any other Mommy's like me??

Fact - My son spent the night with my Mom last Saturday .. That was his first time spending the night away from home, in at least 6-7 months .. Of course, he was given cookies and soda .. When he stays with Nana, that's fine .. you can give him sugar and deal with him lol .. Not my problem .. He doesn't get to bed until 10pm .. Then is back up at 3:45am .. He slept in bed .. Fast forward to Sunday night .. He didn't want to go to bed at his normal bedtime .. Being the tired Mom I am, I wanted him in bed by 8pm .. He had other plans .. He was up until 10pm .. Then, like clockwork, 3:45am rolls around, he is awake .. It's been like this for the past week .. Mind you, he was sleeping through the night before I let him spend the night ..

Do I like to be a bitch of a Mom & ask too much? NO .. but not listening to me or taking my parenting requests seriously, causes havoc on my life .. Do you not think I'd like to have a break and let Bryce stay overnight once in a while? Um, because I would love that .. It's becoming more of a problem, then a reward .. No one seems to realize that a routine is needed for a child .. Do I break this schedule at times? Yes, of course .. I don't like to be restricted to the house from 12-2 because Bryce needs a nap .. But we always make sure to compensate and give him his naps .. 2 hour & a 30-45 minute one ..

Next issue - crying it out .. I have NO idea how some Mommy's do this - let alone, some of you probably do NOT have the loud mouth screaming child that I have .. When he wakes up, he will NOT self soothe .. No matter what I try .. I've read books, watched videos, asked everyone, taken opinions .. Nothing will work .. Unless I physically pick him up, rock him back to sleep, or put him in bed with me until he falls asleep .. (then of course he goes right back into his crib) .. I just don't understand .. Some Mom's will say "oh it only lasts for a few minutes" .. scuse' me? Few minutes? When trying this method, my son has gone 90 minutes .. to the point where he can't even catch his breath .. Little scary for me .. After we had that scare, I refuse to let it happen again .. We took him to the Pediatrician's to make sure he was ok, & basically he was diagnosed with night terrors & separation anxiety .. YAY!!

Now, don't get me wrong .. Yes, I complain .. I'm allowed .. Being a mother is anything but easy .. I feel as though Mother's don't get enough credit .. Whether we work full time or not, our jobs NEVER stop .. We don't get sick days .. We don't get many breaks .. I mean, some do .. But I'm not one of those mother's who can just throw their child off on other people .. He's mine .. My responsibility .. Unless I'm dying or bleeding to death, I will be there .. I have no problems with him spending time with his family to give me a break .. But it's not something I ask for .. If it's offered, I take it ..

Anywhoooo .. On a much happier note .. it's Friday!!! :) Yesterday when I got home from work, I checked my mailbox and inside was the MOST adorable package I've ever seen .. I recently won a blog giveaway for an amazing necklace that  reads "Pressure Makes Diamonds" .. I am in love with it! Anyone who is not already following Veronika @ Veronika's Kandy Koated Dreams - you NEED too .. Talk about the most amazing giveaways EVER! Oh, and did I mention - she is currently giving away a freaking LOUIS VUITTON BAG!! Go follow, tell her I sent you, and enter this amazing giveaway!!

Tomorrow I am off to my first Fall Fest this year .. Can't wait to take my little Boo! :) Happy Friday to everyone!! I'm going to leave you with the cutest face ever!! :) xoxo <3 & a new pic of Me & Baby Daddy!

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Let's talk relationships .. & the longest post ever - Picture overload!

So I've been trying to get the wishy-washy topics on this blog to something more people can relate with ..

Today, I'm in the mood to talk relationships .. & I plan on talking about what I want for Christmas, what I want in my closet, what I want on my feet, what I want to get for my son, & basically, one big ol' wish list for Brittanyyyyyy ..

Let's begin ..

Relationships .. We all have had them .. We all want them .. I'm going to start with a little background to my previous relationships ..

• Every relationship I've been in, I've been cheated on .. (Well all but my current!)
• I've deal with emotional, verbal & physical abuse ..
• I tend to do too much ..
• I tend to give too many chances ..
• I have honestly been in love, 2 times .. (Including my current beau)
• I was engaged .. 
• I was dumped after 6 years of dating - 5 which were engaged - because "he didn't want marriage"

Needless to say, bitter doesn't begin to describe how I felt about "love" .. But like I've been told, never let your past make you "bitter" - let it make you "better" ..

High School is supposed to be a fun time - right? Nope, not for me .. My sophomore through senior year was a nightmare .. All because of ONE boy .. We were on and off for four years .. More off than on .. I was that stupid girl who believed everything he said, so it was no surprise, a month into our dating - when he "kissed" someone else - I gave him a 2nd chance .. Stupidest decision of my life .. Because one "I forgive you" turned in to 4 years of being lied to, cheated on, abused .. I had to switch my classes, I had to get restraining orders, I couldn't even go to Walmart without getting harrassed by his crazy family .. My life was hell .. & I continued to let it happen .. It was embarassing .. My self esteem was non existent .. I continued to blame myself for the reason he cheated .. You know, because it couldn't be his fault - or the fact he was a douche bag - obviously it was all me .. Oh Brittany, what a naive & gullible girl you were .. I should write myself a letter - If I knew then, what I know now - Brittany at 15 compared to Brittany at almost 27 .. I will admit - I was not an "innocent angel" when it came to this relationship - We both were in the wrong at times & I was that girl who used "revenge" to my advantage .. Yes, it was immature .. But when you're 15 & hurt? There's no telling what you will do, am i right or am i right? So yes, I used his friends against him, I made him jealous and I did not care how bad it hurt him because he hurt me .. After four years of hell, I finally ended that one .. Good for me! Best decision of my life .. This boy was the high school "all star" .. He had NBA, NFL and MBA dreams .. and now? He works at a gas station .. Brittany, 1 - Ex, 0 ..

After that fiasco - I meddled in some dating, met some new guys - but was scooped up quickly by a nice, sweet, caring, polite, respectful, mama's boy .. Yeah .. Two words no girl wants to hear .. We dated for 6 months before we became engaged .. I thought this was it for me .. He was 19 & I was 19 .. My first real love, my first engagement, the first guy I moved in with, he was the first for a lot of things .. Fast Forward to when we were both 24 .. What a difference 5 years can make .. He let himself go, he stopped trying, we did nothing fun as a couple .. He was too busy worrying about what his single friends were doing .. What golf course he was going too .. What day he was hunting .. He worked 3rd shift - I worked 1st .. We fought all of the time .. I wanted a husband, I wanted a family, I had the dreams & he made me believe they would come true .. After almost 6 years together - I was told "I just don't want to get married & I don't want kids" .. Umm, ouch?? I had been unhappy for a while .. We both were .. So it wasn't that hard for me to make the decision to leave .. I was more of his mother than his girlfriend .. I cooked, I cleaned, I did it all .. Managed the money, paid the bills, grocery shopped alone, slept alone, there were no date nights, no affection, this wasn't how I wanted my life to be .. We parted ways in early 2010 & I honestly, have not seen or spoke to him since .. Oh wait, I lie .. I had to meet up with him in March of 2011 (I was 3 months pregnant) so he could sign off on our car & I could get one on my own .. It was a little awkward ..

There were some "others" in between and after those "relationships" .. Which leads me to my Baby Daddy :) I was in no way, shape or form, looking for anyone .. I knew him from High School & a lot (I mean a lot) of my girlfriends always made comments about him .. Me, on the other hand, was no interested .. I had too much to worry about in High School anyways .. (see above mentioned douche) .. I can't lie & say the thought DIDN'T cross my mind - it did maybe once - but he just didn't seem like the kind of guy I'd go for, or who would go for me .. Funny how things happen .. So randomly, in September of 2010 - we had been texting and I invited him over to hang out .. After that night, he would text me daily & mostly on weekends .. Me? I was just playing hard to get .. I was kind of still seeing someone else at the time, so I wanted to make sure, I was only seeing one guy at a time .. I wasn't good juggling dating .. I'm a one man kind of woman :) .. Fast forward about 2 months, beginning of November .. My best friend and I were going to a bar to watch a band .. When we got there, I got a text from him .. Instead of ignoring it, I decided to ask him to meet me out .. He told me when I finally responded he said "Forget her, I'm done trying, I'm not going out to meet her" .. I guess I played a little too hard to get, because I almost lost him! lol - His cousin was in town from NY and persuaded him to go out .. He met me at the bar, we drank wayyyy too much & at the end of the night, I made sure he came home with me .. Sounds really bad, but hey, it is what it is! :) Since that day, we were together every night .. He would come to my place, or I'd go to his .. We were both trying to figure out what we wanted .. He had been hurt and cheated on before, so he was scared to commit .. He was a very private person while I'm very outgoing .. So when we'd go out, I didn't understand why he would distance himself and not be as affectionate towards me as he was when we were alone .. He was pushing me away slowly .. Finally, one night, I had had enough .. I text him and said I needed some time alone & I needed a break from him .. He text me back and asked if we could talk .. I honestly had NO intentions of talking to him & was going to end it right then and there .. I didn't want to be lead on again, strung along again, have promises made and be let down .. I ended up meeting up with him & he did the unthinkable .. He asked me to be his girlfriend .. I was so surprised, so shocked & it was so unexpected .. He was known for being the "Single guy" .. But little ol' me changed his perspective & he retired his player jersey in December of 2010 .. Brittany scored again! :) Long story short - we spent too much time alone in December (wink, wink) & January 19, 2011 I found out I was expecting .. He took it better than I did, for sure .. In April we found out we were having a little boy - in May we moved into our first place together - August our little man was born & here we are .. Almost 2 years later .. There are always things to be improved in our relationship .. We were kind of thrown in to being parents pretty quickly on but we've survived the 1st year! December marks 2 years for us .. Everything was rushed .. Do I think we will get married? I sure hope so .. We talk about it .. But we aren't rushing in to it .. Yes, I know, we have a child .. Why aren't we married? I get asked all of the time .. We will get there .. Let us get ourselves right & raise our child .. When the time is right, we will do it .. This may be the 2nd time I've been in love, but I can honestly say, It's the first time I've felt this way about anyone .. Brent is heart .. he is my soul .. he is my support system .. We aren't perfect .. We fight hard, but we love even harder .. We know this is it for us, and forever, I will fight to keep it how it is .. He is my happily ever after .. My prince charming .. & one day, I'm going to make the HOTTEST Cinderella ever! & Because I want to - queue picture overload! The first picture - was from our first night out in November .. The night that started it all :)

Next topic on my agenda - BRITTANY'S WISHLIST!! :) Christmas seems to be right around the corner!

Here is my said - wish list..

 

First and foremost - I WANT A KEURIG!!!! Preferably this yellow one! :)

 

I will take money so that I can go on a shopping spree to the below places - I am pretty simple! :)

 

 

 

And lastly - Can I just say - I want to buy my son EVERYTHING from Baby Gap & Old Navy right now! I mean seriously, look at this stuff!

 

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 OMG I die .. I have to stop .. This is just from Baby Gap - I didn't even go to Old Navy online - I saw what they had in the stores & it is insane .. Now, if only I can use my own Christmas money to buy myself stuff this year instead of using it for Brycie P :) The life of a Momma ..

Happy Hump Day everyone! xoxo <3

Let's Play Catch Up!

So since my last blog - nothing too exciting & fun has happened .. Just the normal everyday life of working and being a Mommy ..

Which brings me to a topic that recently has been talked about more & more to me .. Stay at home Mom's .. I constantly get asked, "Why aren't you at home with your son" .. Is that even an option in today's economy? When I tell people, financially, I cannot afford to stay at home, immediately I'm being told - "sell your car", "ride the bus", "you'll save on gas & daycare", & the most dreaded of all "live off of the government" .. Now don't get me wrong, girlfriend, if you can afford to stay home, my hat is off to you! Unfortunately, I can't .. & sometimes, even if I could, I just don't think I would .. I was on maternity leave for 12 weeks .. Yes, I bonded with my son. Yes, I was sad to go back to work. But then again, I was excited for adult interaction, conversation & getting back into the swing of things .. Around my town, there are hardly NO women I know or am friends with who are stay at home Mom's. Let alone, have the means to go on play dates, shopping trips, lunch dates, out of town excursions .. Time's are tough .. No, my boyfriend does not make 6 figures .. He works 2 jobs .. I work one .. Between the both of us, we still live paycheck to paycheck .. I pride myself in going to work, paying my bills and getting NO assistance what so ever .. My life may not be easy .. It surely isn't glamorous & NO, I can't afford to get a new outfit or piece of clothing every month like some .. But I have 2 nice cars, I have a nice house, my son goes to a GREAT daycare & has shown so much advancement since being there (yes, he was walking at 11 months!), I have a wardrobe full of clothes (so what if they're outdated), my boyfriend has great clothes, we have nice things, we have a pantry & fridge full of food, our electric is always on & we have what we NEED .. Of course, I'd love to be able to have what I want, and with time, that will come. I struggle with saving money. I'm terrible at it. When one door closes for me, another one opens, and any money that has been saved, is used for things needed. Like a new headlight or tires, car maintenance, doctor bills, dentist bills, things I can't control. Everyday life things. I live on a budget. Do you know how bad I'd love to be able to leave work some nights and stop to get a pedicure? Or buy a new outfit? Or shoes? Or have name brand makeup? I never take small things for granted. One day I'll get there. One day I'll be comfortable. But for the time being, I'm alive. I'm healthy. I have an amazing son who is the light of life. He is my best creation. Without him, I'd be so lost. & his father. My love. My soul mate. The reason my life is complete. I know I don't brag or say much about him, but Thanks Baby Daddy. You are truly my best discovery <3

Hmm, what else? October 1st started a new event in my life - NO MORE FAST FOOD! Not only for money reasons, but for health reasons as well. I know my body. I know that when it comes to Halloween, Thanksgiving & Christmas - I gain weight. I cannot afford to gain 1 extra pound. So I'm doing my best at curbing my cravings, my salty tooth & my sweet tooth!

Speaking of Halloween - this year, I don't believe we will be participating in Trick-or-Treat with our little man. My Mom lives in Funkstown & they have an awesome Halloween parade and costume contest, so we will attending that. Since recently, we've found out our baby boy has a peanut allergy. To say I'm worried, is an understatement. I'm terrified of Halloween and candy. I don't really let him have candy to begin with, but for this occasion, I would've normally allowed it. I'm too scared of the candy's that might have, do have it, if it touched something that had peanuts in it. Bryce's allergy is so severe that something as simple as me eating a reese cup, then kissing him, could potentially be deadly. We have 2 epipens on hand at all times just in case. This is something that is so scary to me as a mother. One little peanut could destroy my entire world! I have turned into quite the crazy Mommy & have looked at EVERYTHING and EVERY label in my pantry to be sure, there is no peanuts found anywhere ..

One last thing - the absolute amazing Veronika at Veronika's Kandy Koated Dreams is currently hosting an AWESOME giveaway. Check out her blog and get your entries in .. Have I told you how amazing she is? You'll agree once you take a peek :) Look at all of this GORGEOUS stuff!

Stay beautiful ladies! xoxo <3 P.S. - Is anyone else completely in love with the fact it's October & Fall?? I know I am! Boots, scarves, jeans, pumpkin everything, Mums, football, LONG sleeves, leaves! ahh, makes my heart happy! :)